Kids

Matthew and Papa Francis, taking one of the many walks they take.  Papa allows Matthew to sit on every rock they come across.  He loves to be outside and Papa will stay with him as long as needed.

Matthew all dressed up for his Easter pictures.  He is so grown-up.

Sara!  I know she is a mess, but I love this picture!  We just had ice cream and she is running around the field near the ice cream shop.  

My kids

GOD I LOVE THEM and THANK-YOU so much for giving them to me!

They are growing so fast. I am amazed at what they can do. Still no potty! Matthew went twice today, Sara went twice in her underwear! I know they will get it, I am just crazed at how to teach them. Perhaps they are not ready.

WOW

Today I am using this to vent!

First, Friends:

I understand that as we get older, our needs change and sometimes that means friends change. But, how can friends just completely drift apart? I am tired of being the one trying to get together when the other friend doesn't care. I decided not to try anymore and for the last 5 or so months I have not been upset about it. It is what it is! However, this so called friend says they want to get together, so against my better judgement I let them know when we could get together. 1 month has gone by, about, and no response from the friend. Figures! I am not as upset as I was last year, but it still hurts.

Second, Family:

OK, this one is messy and involves several people for different reasons. I do not need to know every 3 hours that you love your life and I don't need to know everything you own or just bought. I don't think that this is jealousy, but I don't know, I have never had that feeling of jealousy before. I figure there are lots of people who have more than I do, and people who have less than I do. That is life! But, are you trying to tell me (everyone) or yourself that you love your life. I mean, don't we all? Otherwise why would we still be here? I just get so annoyed, even when I try not to get sucked in, someone always brings it back to me. Why? I don't need to know why you are annoyed, you are annoyed the same reason I am and that is why I choose not to talk to this person, or look at their FB status. I don't want you to tell me what it says. I do not want to know! Perhaps you should not look either, it makes for a much happier life! However this said person, had some words to my mom. YOU DO NOT DISS MY MOM!!! Especially since my mom raised this person, and treats this person like their own child. WHat a B I T.... Won't type the word, but I am feeling it! Then this person has cheated on their spouse more than once, was going to leave their spouse, but my mom stepped in and made sure that the spouse wasn't taken advantage of, we have seen it way to many times. I guess this persons plan of leaving their spouse and getting everything was screwed up by my mom. MY MOM was trying to help, so that nothing bad happen again. This person got upset and said things to my mom, that should have never been said. Anyway this person and their spouse are back together and they are telling everyone how happy they are... BLAH BLAH BLAH! Again I say if you have to tell everyone you are happy then you must not be. People should be able to tell it by the way you act. Anyway, I am sure the divorce that didn't happen, will happen as soon as the person figures out another way to take their spouse for everything.

Other family vent issues
You don't have to like me, we don't have to agree, but at least respect me as I do you. Don't pretend. If you don't want me around then have the balls to say so, don't treat me like dirt. I can take it and I can dish it out! I am trying really hard not to dish anything. My kids deserve better and I respect myself. However, enough is enough. I will not let you walk all over me and not say anything. I am trying for my kids to be kind and I know that is what God wants me to do. So, you better keep praying that God helps me keep my frustration away from you!

What a beautiful day!

WOW! Such a great day outside! Thank-you God, to bad I stayed inside all day :( Must take the cat to the vet tomorrow to see why she is losing her fur. Doug is going to get his new phone. Kids are with my mom.

A change in me

Realize that I cannot change anyone but myself. As much as I wished people would grow-up, think for themselves, work, and just treat others kindly, it will never happen. But, perhaps if I start living my life how I would want everyone else to live, I would be happier. It sucks when YOU have to be the one to change, and YOU cannot be crappy to people because they treat you that way!

So, my challenge to myself is to be nicer to those I can not stand! I figured it is easy to be nice and kinder to those you like, but what about those you don't? Can you find someway to be nice to them? What is that saying, "Kill them with Kindness?" I guess they still die, just I can feel better about it? Odd saying, but it works! So, who to start with??? So many to pick from. I know that makes it sounds like I hate a lot of people, but I don't. I actually don't HATE anyone, just their actions and the choices they make. Maybe I was just try to do one nice thing a day for someone, anyone. They more I do, they more it becomes me, then just who I am. I think I can handle that.

Proverbs 17:17 "A friend loves at all times, and a brother is born for adversity." 17:19 "He who loves a quarrel loves sin; he who builds a high gate invites destruction."

Tomorrow my goal: 1. Positive gossip! Hold my tongue when not needed! Do at least one nice thing for someone (even if they don't know it)!


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Now, why was Survivor not on??? MAN I love that show and didn't get to watch it, next week I will be on the road and cannot watch it. 3 weeks w/o survivor! YUCK!!! I can do it! I have to, I have no choice.

My diet of not gluten is going well. I had some bread get onto my fries and WOW was I in pain. I didn't even intended to eat something with Gluten, but I stick came down with pain. Apparently eating out or eating food I didn't cook is out! At least if I want to be pain free. It isn't that bad to not eat anything with Gluten, just not a fast way to cook food. That is OK, it is better for the kids and that is what is important.

Mark 11:24

Therefore I tell you, whatever you ask for in prayer, believe that you have received it, and it will be yours.

This is the verse I read over and over (along with others) when we started the Invitro road. I never could imagine that I would have 2 healthy, beautiful children. Thank-you God! I thank Him everyday and every time I look at my kids. I wasn't sure where that road was going to go, but I am glad God was driving me down that road. I never would have made it without Him! It was a long, bumping road with ALOT of potholes and delays and disappointments! Easter is coming and I am glad I know Him!